For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. – Matthew 6:14

* Forgiving Viggo seemed impossible. He didn’t deserve my forgiveness. He put my life in danger, he neglected me, he dishonored me, and he abandoned me.

I became a victim of injustice. I did not personally know the gang members who shot me. The night of the attack, my silhouette illuminated in the dark. I never learned if they were brought to justice or if the Demons of Darkness avenged their attack. I knew just one thing; those bullets forever changed my life. Viggo didn’t physically pull the trigger, but he was the catalyst behind the bullets.

God commands us to forgive, but it requires a conscious choice to do so. It is not a feeling, but an action. I did not want to live in the past and develop a heart full of bitterness and guilt. I wanted to accept reality and move forward.

This would be tough for me. I still held on to anger and resentment toward those who hurt me.

The Lord says in Romans 12:19, “Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, Vengeance is Mine; I will repay.” Clearly, it is not up to me to repay his debts toward me, but rather trust the Lord to judge him.

Many times, I asked the Lord to help me forgive him. Some days, I needed to ask several times. I could not forget all the harm Viggo caused me. I wanted restoration from the Lord. With each conscious act of forgiveness, I loosened the destructive grip Viggo held over my life.

In the Bible, Jesus reveals that forgiveness may require a lifetime of forgiving. In Matthew 18:21-22: “Peter came to Him and said, ‘Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Up to seven times?’ Jesus said to him, ‘I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.’”

Forgiveness is important to the Lord. This act of obedience gives us a reward of freedom. “And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that your Father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses” (Mark 11:25).

I discovered I must be willing to surrender embedded memories of shame, pain, and suffering to God. I called out to the Lord, “I surrender!” love's bullet, maureen hager

*Excerpts from my new book –  Love’s Bullet: A Wounded Victim in a Biker Gang War Transformed by God’s Love 

Thank you, Lord, for giving me the grace and strength to forgive, even when I don’t feel like it.

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Thanks for sharing!

Love and Blessings, Maureen



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